I completely understand where you’re coming from. I can’t lie and say I have never felt that way. In fact, its stupid how much this describes how I feel about my life 12093810% of the time. :/ And it sucks.
I will just say what my mom and friends always tell me and I will add some more things that I find revalent. :D
" You’re beautiful and you’re talented. The fact that you don’t see it just means your standards of beauty are too high. The fact that you feel you’re not good enough is because you are good at many things; therefore don’t know exactly what you want to do. You show perseverance and humbleness in the fact that you try to help out whenever you can. What isn’t fair is that feeling you’re feeling. That feeling should go away. You help out those who need you and that makes you more beautiful than you can imagine. "
You have pureness and beauty in your heart, I just wish it wasn’t crying and hurting. I wish I could make it stop. <3 Feel free to talk to me anytime on anon or not. I admire your strength.